BY YOURSELF
I'm a person who is dreamer but not to the point were I lost all contact with reality. I know where I want to go but sadly I know how the world works. I know that no matter how much someone or something does good, if they screw up then that mistake with stick with them forever and will forever be noticed despite the good. I know that no matter how much you try to do good in the world that it is going to be appreciated for a second and then forgotten. You can't make the world a better place because of the "natural" man in all of us. I know that the United States is one of the rich countries but it has the Highest poverty rates, which obviously speaks a lot from those statistics... it speaks of "what when wrong?" It speaks of how come that country is not trying to do something about it..it speaks. I know that walking to worlds is so hard that I just wish to leave them and create my own. I know that no matter how much pain and suffering you go through you will find peace but for a moment. Once the moments gone you strive so hard to get it back when in reality it will come but not until a couple of trails come your way. I know that the world does not stop for you when you lost someone you loved or when your sick or injured. I know that people will claw their way up to the top and they will do all they can to bring you down. I know that life is no tea party you have to work and get dirty. I know that no matter how much a person says that they will be there for you, its a lie, they mean it with sincere heart but in the end it will be up to you to deal with you problems, life, family, friends, etc BY YOURSELF.
Movie Night
Have you ever watched something that confused you or made you think too hard? I certainly have, but tonight´s movie has to be the one on top of my list of confusing/interesting/amazing/neutral movies that I have ever watched.
It all started out with me celebrating my best friend´s birthday. During the little party, I had received a phone call from my close friend, Josh. He asked me to go see a movie with him because he was not to sure if he wanted to go with his roommate. I agreed to go with him. He later on explained that this movie was for his gender class, now I was thinking, cool a movie would nice and of course its for a good cause, so why not. However, the movie was the recent controversy among certain groups of people in film and possibly in general. The movie was called, "Broke back Mountain".
Now if you haven´t heard of this movie, its about two strangers who become friends and as they spend time together they become a little bit more than friends. Keep in mind they are both men.
I´m not against gay, lesbian, or bi people. I don´t mean to target them in this journal entry. However, this was the first time that I had ever watched such a movie with this content, as well as associating with people who are gay. I would have to say that the experience was really interesting. The movie did make me cry and I thought it was a good movie, but just to see to men on the screen, instead of a male and female kind of caught me off guard.
It made me realize that people who are of that nature are just like us. I think the pivotal moment when I thought that was during this scene when one was going to visit the other. The other was with his children and told him he could spend time with man who came to visit him. The other agreed that it wasn´t right to interfere with his children so he left, but as he was driving away he cried. Now, let me explain, a girl who drives a couple of hours and is rejected by the one she likes or loves, the typical reaction would be anger, sadness, and of course tears. In this movie it showed what a man and a woman would do, but it was between to men!
Now you can call me ignorant or arrogant but this was so new to me that it was such a strong experience. I never in my life seen or expected this group to feel this way toward each other. My best friend had a made a comment, he said "Anne, people who are like that are not different species; they are like you and me. They like to play, kiss, hold each other, and show their affection towards on another." This made me think a lot. I do agree with him but I guess it was something I never thought about because I stayed neutral on this subject. Let me tell you, it will eventually present itself; you have to be ready for what is coming and understand what you take from it. To be honest I wasn´t ready but it came. I did, however, take a lot from this experience. It just made me realize a lot, it also made me think a lot about people, and I feel that I now understand more from this situation.
My First Journal Entry of 2006!
Hi everyone! Well, I would first like to introduce myself, my name is Diane. I´m a poor college (smiles) student living in Tucson, Arizona. I´m Navajo, Tewa, and Spanish. I know this is just a little bit of information but you will get to know me along the way.
I would like to start of with my break! It was truly an amazing break. Not only did I get to see old friends and visit with family, I finally figured out the importance of family. I don´t really have a heartbreaking or poignant story to tell that has a pivotal moment when I´m dramatically understand, like they do in the movies, it came to me over the days when I had been thinking how good it feels to be around family.
I´m thankful for my family and all that they do. I know that they care deeply about me and me for them. It´s so amazing to have family around because now I know that they are my closest friends I can ever find.
Good-Bye U of A!
Well, I had finished finals! I think I did well but I ready to leave now and go home and have some free time to relax! I can´t wait; I have been mentally making a list of what I´m going to do over the break! I hope that everyone did well in school and have a happy and safe winter break! Oh yes, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!
AAAHHHH Finals!
OH my goodness finals are so stressful! I had been studying for all of my classes. I know I can do well on them but I just need to focus a lot now. I´m doing good and having fun though! I work well under pressure. Well that´s all I go for now!
Feeling Down
Have you ever saw someone and knew that they were troubled by something? Well, during class I had this feeling when I looked at this certain individual. You could see the there was something eating way at them. I eventually put it aside and focused on my work for the day. Later on it dawned on me that I should help this person but I didn´t. The reason being was because the individual didn´t ask for my help but for another. I only observed the situation from afar and later found out that this person was going through some financial trouble. He was asking for food and did receive it but it was heartbreaking to see this person actually begging. I never before encountered such a situation only with older people but never someone who was my age. This was a sad situation which had bugged me all day. I later told my father and he told me that there are people out there who are like that. He told me what I should have done and what I can do now. He also told me that when these things come up, give them what they want because that´s how life should be. He also told me that the song "Fly like an Eagle" by Steve Miller Band, reminds him of this every thing that had happened to me. If your not familiar with this song its sing about the poverty of children who have nothing. I took his words seriously. Although I didn?t help that person, I was glad that the person that, that individual asks for food, gave him food. This made me realize that I´m so selfish because I sometimes complain about the luxury in my life, where there are people out there who have nothing and they would love to switch me places in a heart beat. I´m thankful for this situation that has occurred because it´s just makes me aware that I should help those who are in need.
Thanksgiving Break
Hey ya´ll well I´m home for now. I´m for now! I have been doing well now but I´m worried that I´m slacking in my school work! (shhhh! Don´t tell mommy or daddy!) Well, anyway I´m soaking in my break and enjoying being home with friends and family. However, a lot has changed. My parents don´t treat as they had used to, which is great because I can actually talk to them! I have also discovered that a lot of my friends had changed and it feels like I have nothing in common with them, only that I had once knew and had fun with them. I guess that saying is true, old friends become old strangers. Oh well, I enjoy the memories that I had had with them! Chow for now!
Tunnel of Oppression
Have you heard of the Tunnel of Oppression? Well, it´s an on campus event that is free (I think) to the public and it preformed my volunteers who act out scenarios about racism, self-images, relationship abuse, discrimination, and loads more. It´s for three days and anyone can attend.
You may be wondering why in the heck I´m telling you this. Well, I got the opportunity to help with this. I was an actress and I preformed in the relationship abuse scene. It was a great experience, however it really did open my eyes to what many people go through but never reveal to people they love and trust.
This experience is kind of hard to share because you can´t really go to someone and give all your emotions and place it in them. I suppose the only way they could understand is if they go through it themselves because there is so much information being tossed at you, only you can grasp it and truly understand it.However, it was a great experience it almost brought me to tears to hear and to know what is going on with a lot of a people.
In the beginning of this, in my video diary I was really nervous about this but it actually okay. I did my best and the people I worked with actually said that I was good and hoped that I could do this next year. It was a great way to met people and develops friendships, especially when you're a first year student!
Met Tucson,
Hello! Well, I have load to tell you today! Last evening I had the coolest opportunity to go to this event called "Met Tucson" It´s an event that is full of people and their cultures. It was great! I had so much fun! There were people from that far reaches of the earth an there were people that were from the United States! It was great! There was a lot of food, songs, dances, and music! I was interested in trying something that was different so I went to the food section and tried Indian food. It was so good! I got a plate full of yummy food and had Rose water! The water was amazing! It tasted like a real rose! You may be saying "She actually ate a rose!" Well, no the smell of the rose was captured into a drink and it was delicious! I also tried food from Puerto Rico, the local tribe and good old water from the United States *smiles* that was a joke! Well, this was a cool event and I encourage everyone to attend next year!
All contents copyright © 2005. Arizona Board of Regents.
Search powered by:
