Hello
Summer has been so busy. I haven’t truly had a break since I got off of my
sophomore year. Its all a part or reality and getting older. Its hard.
Im sure the sure the hardest part has yet to come. God has been so great with
giving me the strength, perseverance, and stamina to truck on. I have been taking summer
courses and working fulltime. Its insanely tough. This summer I wanted to
relax and read books. Really get hooked into a good book and get lost in it.
Ive wanted to draw and play sudoku and enjoy the marvelous wonders of
PS2. But sadly, im too burnt out for any of that. Life gets harder man. God has
taught me about a lot of maturity in life. This year im living off campus- but its still
insanely close which is awesome. I quit photo lab on the 30th of july ( yey
4days!!!) thank God!. Once I quit I still really don’t have a break, I have
to pack and make a couple trips to Tucson to move my things into the
house. Man sooo busy. Once I unpack I have to maybe take a day or two to relax ( and im
sure those days will go bye fast) then start working back at that crazy old
coffee shop; my espresso fix will come back into life. Like I said I am so
grateful for everything He has given me, a lot of maturity has risen from me.
Now I have to work to pay rent, and im telling ya, being a full time student
with work ( even now in the summer ) is tiring. Ive gotten A’s on all my
exams so far and that’s only due to the blessing of the Lord. (thankyou)!!
Im just tired is all, and I cant wait to relax to read and draw and
basically?? RELAX!!!!
I love my mom and dad so much, they’ve been such a blessing. Its
extremely comforting to have parents who are with you in every step giving you
Godly advise . I love my sister man. Her and I worked together at photo
lab and man its been awesome. We have made so many awesome friends and made many many
hilarious photos?..haha?.i will post them. Im so burnt out I don’t even
have time to call back or message friends. Its sad I know. When im done with
school and work I got bed once I get home at like 8 or 9 ?..then repeat
it all. Woot.
It’s easier to say the word NEGLECT than to try to figure out the many explanations as to why it has taken me so long to update my journals. I from here on out, shall (no promises-haha) keep it updated. This is sort of a reflection of my sophomore year at the University of Arizona. Here we go:
As of right now, I am in Queen Creek Arizona sitting on the beautiful black leather couches that match my black dog. I’m so relaxed. I just got done from an hour of working out the upper body with my dad, my arms have officially turned into jello. Last summer before sophomore year I worked at my neighborhood walmart photo lab. It was pretty amusing. We have the unwanted and unfortunate pleasure of viewing thousands of peoples photos, developing them, aiding the customers with our machines and so forth. Its truly fun and I thank God for giving a job so convenient. I was working 40 hours a week, and let me tell you it take a lot out of a kid when you just jump into full time work right out of full time school. Photo Lab was great, I met a lot of wonderful people, and a lot of people who are lost in life. This all began on May 23rd 2006. During this time, my dog bear had something strange happen to him. All of a sudden he became weak. By weak I mean he wasn’t able to walk, stand, run, bark, do any of his tricks or wag his tail. Hes like my brother and ive never felt so much pain for strange thing goin on in his life. I get teary thinking about it all. It was an all of a sudden thing. Day to night basically. We gave it a couple of days and it all just got worse. He would constantly whine. And no matter what we did take him out (at this point we had to him so he could go to the bathroom) feed him, or whatever all just didn’t work. I remember the breaking point for me. Ever since he was a pup he had loved the water. So when we say shower to him he goes to the shower to get his bath. This time it was different. I put him in the tub and began washing him, not too long into he collapsed- which hurt him. I got into the tub picked him up and squatted in the tub with his belly resting on my knees. He put all his weight on me and at this point I broke down into tears. I looked up and just asked God why is this happening to him this is so sad. I sat there and I prayed for him. I washed him on my knees –hardest thing I have ever done with my pup. We took him to the vet and specialists, they said something mustve happened to him neurologically and that surgery would be necessary to fix it. They said it would cost 2000 dollars plus other things. My family doesn’t have that kind of money to spend at a whim, so they gave us an ultimatum. I told them that I have total faith in God that he would be fine, and they all looked at me like good luck with that. People who have no faith. It really did see glim about the condition of bear but just because thing are looking bad doesn’t mean you quit praying or quit having faith, being a Christian means you will go through trials. And you will come out of it without a scratch if you keep your eyes on God. After three months of praying, Gods healing touch came into bears life and like I said day and night. Man I thank God so much . Thanx!! It took him about five months to progressively get better. And today June 12, 2007 he can run wag his fluffy tail bark play everything. He finally is back to his old self ( not entirely….he needs to lose weight from it all due to his immobile-ness ). So tht summer of 06’ was a major trial….which also increases my faith in God that much more.
Summer I pretty much worked, played volleyball and bond with the family. Now, to the beginning of sophomore year. I was able to move in a week early due to me being on HI-TEAM. This was a group that involved us helping residents move into the dorms. (WORST IDEA EVER) people think that just because your there to help that you will move in all their things…..yea aint happening. For my dorm, I was the captain of four girls since I already lived there. I told them that when a family begins to have those expectations from us we leave em haha. Cus were only supposed to help for a load or two for each group……not over twenty! Moving in early was great. I made a lot of new friends through it though so I am very grateful for that ( we all ended up clicking over my favorite sport---volleyball). Anyways my roommate finally moved in and yea probably the worst roommate , sorry to say. Im a very understanding person but she was all for herself, and I know it does suck having to share a room with someone you don’t know. But make the best of it- to sum it all up- she wanted to be buddy buddy with me, and to be honest when your living with someone you don’t know everyday and you try to do that, it mostly turns out sour. Im a friendly person but im not one who needs to be buddy buddy. I couldn’t give her that so she wasn’t too happy. I was working 55 hours every two weeks with full time school and studying and she didn’t understand that and would rather “party” or bother me. It really turned sour by the end of first semester after she came into the room one night at 3 am and I had work at 7am and was yelling with the RA in my room. LONG STORY. And it just got worse. I ended up moving to La Paz , next to my old dorm and much newer and met the best roommate and friend I could have. Her name is Sydni- I have never met such a chill understanding laid back person who is also athletic like me. I prayed about the whole switching dorm thing and God opened all the doors. I prayed for a better roommate because I had no time for drama in between school. God answered my prayers. Her and I are still very good friends now. Today is her 19th bday. YEY!! She lives in Florida. I know I will be life long friends with her and I cant thank God enough for an awesome roomy like her. During this time my boyfriend Chris got an awesome job as an Operations Manager at the Pepsi Center in Colorado for the Avalanche. They are a hockey team! I saw him the 9th, 10th, and 11th of February. It was a weekend and it was the hardest time for me in the relationship because when you love some one so much its soooo hard to let them go. After a month and a half he decided it wasn’t for him ( we thought hed live there for years haha…we were nieve) so he moved back to Arizona. Ha, yey for me. When he left for Colorado I thought I would be able to handle it since I grew up as a military brat. Its so much different when its your boyfriend not your dad. I thought it would prepare me for Chris leaving- I was totally unprepared. He came back to AZ so its all gravy!
I also became with one of my coworkers/ friends at the coffee shop. Kendra and I started hanging out and I also thank God for her in my life because I had some major personal and relationship things going on. HA- we did yoga together…haha it was so fun…VINYASA!! God truly just keeps working through our lives, and for sure me. Everything this year has been soo hard and wonderful at the same time. I decided to take French after three years of being out of it and received an A for the class. I had a wonderful teacher named Raymond. Merci Beaucoup Raymond! It was a very awesome second semester to be honest.
At the end of the year, my friend who works with me was talking to me bout my housing situation. I was sad because Sydni was going back to florida for tennis. This meant that her and I wouldn’t be able to room together again( which we goin to if that crazy girl didn’t leave). I didn’t want to be in the dorms again and couldn’t fathom another new roommate, because you either get a good roomy or a bad one ya know. So Susan ( my other coworker and friend) with her roomy looked at this house right behind the rec center which I can see La Paz from as a prospect to live in for our junior year. I was praying about the housing situation since I found out sydni was leaving and I kept praying about it . I wanted God to answer me asap but it doesn’t work that way. It takes patience. And so I waited for his answer and I also included my parents in the decision ( which I always do)So by mid summer 07, God gave us the go ahead, so now im living off campus for the first time in my own ROOM….YEY with awesome people!!!! SOOO many blessings. Right when I got home from school I rested a week then started back at Photolab on the 22nd of May 2007. YEY. Its nice to be back, I get to take lunches with my Nanay ( mom in Tagalog) ….its awesome. Ive had so much fun being back and being back with old coworkers. Especially my friend Mulan. HA she left me in photolab for the second time since last summer she left after a month of me being there due to school and recently she came back to photolab for about 8 months the lefts the 7th of june to go into the airforce. Im so happy for her. SHES an awesome Filipina!! So this Saturday my sis and I are goin to her going away party. Which should be quite awesome!!! I also work with my sister ( my mom got us the jobs again…thanx inay) so that’s a blast. My days are pretty jam packed. On july 9th I start summer school to try and get ahead and also work. Its never ending but hey where theres a will theres a way.
I LOVE MY PARENTS!!!! My dad has been helping me work out ( military style) which is awesome….haha my arms will feel it tomorrow. My mom and I play volleyball frequently. Their building a park behind our house with two sand courts….its gonna be awesome.
My sis and I have been catching up on PS2!! I love God of War……one of the best games ever…I now have time to play the second one……I get the summer to play Ghost Recon Advanced Warrior, Rainbow Six, SOCOM, Prince of Persia (II) and more. Man I love summer. Im also getting my tan on….haha….. GOD IS GREAT!!
I LOVE CHRIS!!!! Ive been waiting for this part of the journal haha. Hes my bestfriend and my man. He just turned 20 on May 28th ….i turn 20 on August 5th…hes dating a teen ager…..haha it sounds wrong. Hes been soo understanding and wonderful. We live far apart ( in AZ still) and a lot of people say that long distance relationships don’t work but let tell you……when you put God into the relationship ad the foundation and both people keep their eyes one him, it WORKS. Trust me. Ah…I love him.
Oh yea…..i recently went on a ring buying spree….within a month I bought 4 more new shiny large rings…I will show pictures ……haha the month of May actually. Life is good….i.m saving a lot….since I will be paying for housing and stuff. Im excited. As of right now ima try to buy stuff for the house here and there. So as of right now I have tomorrow off and going to clean my room.
Random: God is always there for us and will never forsake us, it up to us to always be there with Him, its our choice, Hes always waiting for us to come to Him.
No matter how bad something is no matter how long its been goin on…keep faith and persevere!
SUMMER!!!!!
Hello! As of friday the 12th, i have been out of school, completed my freshman year of college, and am now relaxing. its happy. Such a blessing to have a Inay (mom) who can hook you up with a job, its awesome how God makes it possible for it all to happen. For my summer job, I think im God willing, working as a Cashier at the W-mizzle which happens to be 2 mins away from me home. Now that's sexy!!!
Freshman year. wow its all over and trust me long awaited. Chris and I have been growing with the word, and now continue to on the phone due to distance factor. He lives in Peoria while i reside in Q TOWN.....queencreek. Hey at least we're both in the same state. It was so hard leaving early sat morning the 13th. I stayed up the whole night. Chris and i were watching tv, actually he was sleeping.....hey at least there weren't any other people in the lounge. I was thinking, wow, we have basically spent the whole year seeing one another everyday. He is one of my bestfriends, under God and Inay. i remember his mom called at 611am saying she was outside of the dorm.... Chris asked if I wanted to help him bring stuff down to his mom, i would have loved to, but i knew that i would have broken down, and i just didn't want that to be seen. strange I know.
This is the first time i have cried for a significant other....well he is the only significant other. God willing. We play nintendo together, and workout together, and.....make peach rasp tea. Good times!!! I thank God for this school year. So many blessings, so many. Gods will......its something we all should listen to carefully, and also eagerly hunger for it. I have been praying about this for a long while.......where God wants me to be, at UofA or back home, so far all the doors lead to back home. I shall keep praying about it.....and c where God plans for me to be.
On the 15th of this month, my mom and i played some Soul Caliber II. and....yea the Necrid monkey killed me massively....my mom beat me 13 times....i cried :) . on the other hand,,,,,,im untouchable in mortal kombat....bwahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha its happy. I enjoy times like that...when my mom and i bond. its much nicer in person to talk than on the phone.....i can honestly say i value personal time so much more.
Chris and i like i said, are goin to keep growing in our relationship with God and with one another bright an early. I'm so excited!!!! I love that Bonnie so much.....POPPY. Today Chris and i read James 1. yes one chapter may not seem like alot, but the thing is there's so much substance in each sentence....so much to be disected. its soo cool when God reveals it to ya in a
sentence....hehe..for me im like....wow...how could i have missed that....good stuff!!!
My amiga Brit and I are finally able to hangout....yey...since now I think we live closer together since i got back home. Im sooo excited to play vball and read in the word with her!! miroku wha??!! Man she's awesome, its so awesome how passionate she is for the Lord....haven't you noticed, when you see a fellow bro or sister in Christ who are soo passionate for Him, it makes u hunger to grow in your relationship with Him soo much more.......gets me all
excited.
Now since im back at home, i have noticed i have young teenage neighbors, i pray for opportunities to witness to them..and man i know they will be coming. Haha they wont know what hit em.......i think its awesome to see youth become passionate about God......why not!! start young man! man....i cant wait to see them again...... i pray that their hearts will be receptive...
My sister plans to move on June 1st. That's cool. I pray all goes well. It will be bitter sweet though. Our relationship took a massive holt when she met her BF. I have no worries......for those who do understand what i am talking about, i just hope she knows everything that has been done- i have taken it all like a grain of salt. i hope in the future my sis understands how i have
felt.
Its awesome my Marine dad had his bday on the 10th of this month. Its awesome.....his cake which happened to be my fav chocolate......he looks good for his age.....early 30's. I LOVE MY FAMILY!!!!!!well hmm i should get to bed....im excited to get up and grow in the word....especially with CHRIS>!!!!
yey......
Hello= Today is EASTER!!! YEY...Jesus Christ is alive and well...isnt that awesome....~~ man thats awesome. I thank you so much Lord....for your blessings......how you are so understanding and compassionate when we dont even deserve it.....man...how great YOU are!!
Its been a while since i wrote something....n e who....whats new...well my families house has been completed......yey....so now we are living in it.....my mom and i painted the house....that was some massive work we had to do there. But man, God has totally blessed us with our own house....thats too awesome. its crazy.....when i went home for the weekend about a month ago.....i brought home all my posters and things (mainly) from my dorm room so that I could decorate my new room. yey....i stayed up till 4am....then to later the next weekend take em down...im not kidding i had all the walls filled....it had alot of INUYASHA.....its anime. but man...its awesome. i put all my SANRIO up.....wow.....alot of work......i get too excited about me el room.
In the place we lived at b4 this...i would restle with my dog and have him chase me....what makes it funny for me was that it was all tile...in this new house....it has carpet and tile....so..im hosed in certain areas of the house.....crazy dog always wins....oh yea..i got him a squeaky toy.....when im sleeping i wake up to the noise of him squeeking it.....gotta love him .
My friend Brit and i have still been reading together..which again is such a blessing. We finished 1st Corinthians now we are on 2nd Cor. which is great. I love those two books. Some of my favorites. God is so good. its funny and just leaves me in awe---about how God has a certain message for all of us......each and everyday.......he has it planned....before our days begins.....man...when we read the WORD in the morning...i feel equipped.....with Gods awesome truth. Reading the WORD fills me up....when I dont read it in the morning i feel low and like im missing something...i know....its my SPIRITUAL NOURISHMENT!!!.......Easter.....thank YOU
LORD.....for your love.
Hello- this journal will be random- unintentionally
Yesterday i had my millennial project group filming. It was nice to meet all of them for the very first time. All seem very awesome. All very different. LOLnext time im wearing my comfy clothes....Marine Corps Sweatshirt for the win.....yey..... N e ways- i truly look forward to meeting them all again and being able to hang out maybe.
Ya know, i think about my grandfather kinda often. Its weird to hear someone say something in regards to their grandfather- that mine had done or said before. kinda makes me sad. i dont know. even though it happened in january- in many ways i still dont believe it. the following two er three weeks after the news, i cried like crazy. my way of mourning. ive never cried in such sadness before about a relative. i didnt know how to react to it really. I took some of it out on Chris- my boyfrriend. i was angry and i couldnt pin point why- ......maybe because my grandfather was gone.....key word GONE...and it was done and over with. I thank You Lord for getting me through it. and for giving me strength as i still go through it.
The school year is almost over. I am excited. i truly cant wait for summer. I want to work and maybe attend summer school ( for the third year in a row). Im having trouble in ECOL 182--- i cant stand their "evolution" poo. No worries.... i seem to find myself not concentrating.
My dorm room smells nice- my sister has this boyfriend- i think i might be allergic to him.....not to be mean...but everytime he visits i get really itchy...my eyes hurt.... When come back from the store er something, i go back to my room...and i get all itchy..... right when i get back her and her boyfriend return.....and yea....im allergic to him. ha..thats funny.
I recently bought one of the syrups at my store ( A coffee shop).....its raspberry...bwahahaha so i can make tea with it. Its awesome. I also discovered i love drinking iced chai. its happy. Ive also picked up like 2o something hours extra to my 12hours i work every week. lol./..... its crazy. working 530 am to 2pm....without n e breaks ( my choice of course).
I love nintendo, ps2 and N64. Its fun stuff. i dont fill my time with it...but when all is done...i enjoy relaxing by playing with it. Usually the PS2......Splinter Cell Chaos Theory. i already beat it a long while ago ....but i just enjoy it alot.
My dog truly loves squeaky toys.......
Its crazy- i just want to be done with school and be already established with my career. its being impatient i know-----as for now, im waiting on whatever Gods will is for me. I just want it all over.
Man, my arm is itchy...........who makes "Anti-itch cream for stinky sisters boyfriend?" kidding.......ish.
Right now im in a mellow mood. listening to shuffle playlist on itunes. Currently miss whitney is playing. well i guess i should end this random piece of work. i should be studying... well ne ways....later
Hello. God is awesome. Today we closed for our house and yey...we get to move in.. I spent around three hours kickin back there...even though there was no furniture or n e thing. I brought some snacks...the laptop of incomprehensible DOOM...and the most essential item....my dog named Bunny (Bear). He had fun. my parents both at work...hehe....anyways,,,it's soo nice to
be off for spring break. Much needed rest. Its awesome...my friend Brit and i.....we read at night time, when i mean read, i'm talking about reading the word of God.And man...its such a pleasure to grow in a friendship through the word of GOD. Any ways...saturday me mom and i shall paint parts of the house....this will be awesome.
It's also a blessing to have such a wonderful man in my life. My boyfriend Chris. Thank You LORD....to have a man who loves you and encourages me through the word. I LOVE HIM!!!! We play sports, PS2 ( mortal kombat- he also loses against my NIGHT WOLF......pssha), and man is just a happy relationship. Its crazy awesome.....my parents like him .
My parents are such a blessing. I love my mom so much, talk about a woman who fears and loves the LORD. Fearing the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. Its so encouraging to read the word with her in the morning at 6am to start our day. God is awesome!
I'm kind of jumping around subjects right now but hey i can. back to my friend Brit. We have been reading 1st Corinthians for a while now..... and wow...i've read it so many times, and its funny how God can reveal new things about certain words or phrases that you would have overlooked. Its so awesome, we came across some things that are so true and so easily forgotten. In chp 15:2 " by this gospel you are saved, IF you hold firmly to the word i have preached to you." Wow.....the word is food for the soul....and its vital that we keep it close to the heart and have our souls constantly fed by it. Keep it close to our hearts.... Another thing that we read verse 33 " Bad company corrupts good character." It you want to grow....you need to be surrounded with people who love the Lord and are passionate about Him. I'm not saying stay away from unsaved.....of course...spread the word....by all means...but in order to grow...and be encouraged with the truth.....bad company can be in the subtlest forms....
Another thing we read.....verse 58 "...always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain." Isn't that awesome....As Christians...we go through trials, and yes being a Christian - you will be persecuted...but greater is he that is in me than he that is in the world....If we live our lives whole heartedly for Him....we will inherit the kingdom of God..yey..... The Bible is so great.
oh and cupcakes taste good....those suckers have been long awaited....
hey- I would like to start this out by saying what a wonderful God we have!!!!
Man, God is so awesome and so compassionate. For a long while, I felt it a good
idea to grow with friends, not only in friendship, but friendship through the
Word, which is truth, which is GOD. My friend Brit and I have been doing this
for a long while now, and let me tell you what a blessing it has surely been!!!
I've read 1st Corinthians many times, and I love it! But wow, can the Holy Spirit reveal things in a new light. In chapter 12 verse 31, it has two words that I stopped at ' EAGERLY DESIRE '. Wow, such beautiful words, such beautiful words. If you really think about it, if everyday when we first wake up, the first thing on our mind is to eagerly desire to seek God, eagerly desire to grow in his word which is the truth, eagerly desire to grow in our maturity and our walk with HIM, EAGERLY DESIRE to be passionate about God and be passionate for God...WOW!!!! WE WILL GROW!!! AND BECOME STRONGER AND MORE FAITHFULL CHRISTIANS!!! That’s so awesome. How many times have we consecutively woken up in the morning and did not EAGERLY DESIRE to get into his WORD.......I know that I was guilty of that, but that has now changed. People! Everyday we must eagerly desire God. Why not start the day with a blessing from the Lord Jesus Christ who waits willingly everyday to give you truth and wisdom? Man, imagine how much growth you can have! Seriously, man, I love the Lord so much; I EAGERLY DESIRE to GROW EVERYDAY.....EVERDAY. God is an all or nothing GOD. You can’t be a Luke-warm Christian....it doesn’t work that way....God will just spit you out! Who cares if you get crazy mad excited about the LORD....oh man I SURE DO!!! He is an awesome GOD and deserves all the praises.....the only judgment that matters is HIS....so live your lives always in TODAY!! In all you do acknowledge HIM....man God is good......I love you Lord!
This is crazy awesome…..I only have two days of school……WOOT. Tuesdays and Thursdays. Taking five classes. On my days off, I work at a coffee shop. Man, so many strange people. STRANGE!!!!!! I never knew coffee customers could be so rude, then again, they’re nothing compared to the people I dealt with when I worked as a cashier at Fry’s. Anyways, I went swimming today. Oh man, the girls locker room, I can’t believe how easily those girls just strip down without being shy or embarrassed. To think, they are willing to show their bodies freely to random society (other females in the locker room), when they have a hard time showing their bodies to their significant other in , lets hope, a long term serious relationship. It boggles the mind, well maybe just mine since I’m Asian. WOOT. ASIAN PRIDE. Maybe it’s because they have more emotional attachment and see that person frequently compared to the other locker room people. Oh yea…… Kobe Bryant scored I think 81 points in one game. WOW. That’s awesome. But Will Chamberland hasn’t been beat. Maybe it’s that 70’s juice. Pshhh…we should get some of that…..GO NASH…!!!
Hey,
Today is a sad day. Today at around 2 o’clock, I got a call from my mom that my grandpa has just passed away. Wow. I am still in shock. his is a big change, its diverse for me because I have never had anyone in my family pass away before. Its strange, how fast life can go. But ya know, that’s why we have to make the best out of every moment. Having total faith in the LORD. It really makes me appreciate my time, and also makes me realize more so that walking a Christian walk is so essential. Man, time is so short. We have to live our lives for God. Although I am sad, I am excited. I know that out of this tragedy, God has an awesome plan that will come out of it all somehow. And I have total faith in his works. Anyways……all that can be said really- keep the faith and greater is he that is in me than is of this world.
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